I Love My Husband

I love my husband. Isn't that nice? But to be honest, love is not a sufficient word for him. There is a depth of emotion that exists well beyond my heart. It's planted itself deep within my spirit. It is a "love" that cannot exist without the generosity of time itself. I can no longer look at the word "love" as simply an emotion. Love creates itself when actions have preceded. A large part of the love result is a choice of commitment. This, I have learned, is taken for granted by many who have hurt and been hurt. A sustained emotion is a shallow purpose for any relationship. The muscle of "love" is strengthened every time you choose to work through your differences. It is strengthened when you choose to fight against the world's cheap idea of satisfaction. It is strengthened when it's not about you, but rather about lifting them up. Love is complicated. It involves pain. It involves patients. It involves denying yourself. It involves perspective. It involves focus. It involves an extreme amount of vulnerablility. You must be willing and prepared to be hurt, and then commited enough to heal, forgive, and do it all over again. But you know what!? What worth would love have without the fight? We long for something more valuable than a fleeting high. Something more tangible than our day to day accomplishments. It's love. It's love in it's fullest meaning. It's love in it's fiercest manner. Love isn't pretty, it's just. You'll get out of it what you put into it. It should no longer be taken as lightly as a hollow lust. Love should never be insulted with the accompaniment of lust. Love is to be respected, and in turn it will reward you with blessings that you could only describe as somthing beyond the capabilities of this world. That is tangible to the depths of our creation!
Be bold enough to seek out love. Love is always waiting for you to discover it's gift and blessings. Be strong and confident in commiting to someone in marriage. Be overjoyed when challenges come and you have a chance to give your love more meaning. Choose the struggles of love, and you will grow closer to God.
"And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him."
1 John 4: 14-16
With that said, I love my husband.

Listen

Are you ever hungry to just sit and listen to the comforting drone of a good song? It happens to me quite often. It's almost a necessity when I fall into certain moods. It's a beautiful addiction and a deeply satisfying meal when I indulge myself. Right now it's Aqualung that's massaging my eardrums. But the reaction I have to the music runs past my ears into...well, into what? Is it my soul? How is it that listening to some good music causes deep down pleasure? It's almost tangible within me. There's nothing else happening right now. My husband is off enjoying time with some friends. It's about dusk here. All I need in the world right now is to sit and fall into a place where nothing matters but what I'm feeling. That feeling is peace. Watching the color of the day slip into a beautiful night. My heartbeat slows and seems to sync itself with the music. My breathing becomes a drowsy rhythm. I love his piano. Being alone has become a blessing for now. I don't need to think about much. I can forget where I am and who I am- not that I don't like these things. My eyes are becoming heavy but lighter at the same time. I want to close them, not to rest them, but believing I'll see more this way. I love this pocket of time. I just wanted to share it. I hope that you take time to have moments like these to center youself in the middle of routine. Allow yourself to tap into that romantic artistic side of your soul , even if for a moment. Don't bury it with the world's distracting business.